It has been so so long since i updated this dead blog. well.. actually there is a lot of times when i hav e tempations to update u but was lazy too.
Over this holidays, i realised a lot of things. e person i love, e cca that i once like. well, its hard to guess. really.
talk about my cca first. felt unjustified or unfair. cause i got more experience can. mayb its becos of my figure? i am fat. io know that. but u dun hav to put me to e back right? felt so unfair. well, i dunno la.. after next year, everything is over. i shall wait for that day. there is no joy at all.
as for my results, its horrible until -.= undecribatble. i wanna improve, but i cant. dun hav e mood. still wanna play yet :x but i cant continue this anymore. really. i must stop myself but how? i really dunno. i would rather keep everything to myself than telling others. i dunno why too..
how i wish i am still that innocent girl
as for e man i like, i juz felt hurt.. no idea why. mayb he has stopped caring about me. due to me .
